Re-Mission Accomplished!!

Last Thursday I officially went into remission. I started the day at about 10:30 with a PET SCAN at Abbott. I could not eat anything in the morning. They flushed my veins with some dye then I had to take a one hour nap in a dark room with warm blankets and drink a bottle of water. This time I didn’t have to drink the nasty milky chalky stuff. Probably because my first scan was at a different location with different protocols. So after an hour they woke me up. Brought me to the exam room. This was another half hour nap. I just had to lay very still for about 25 minutes in the machine while it scans my body from my head to my knees. Then I was free to go. Then I had to be to my doctors office around 3 for the results. First I had my blood taken and then I was called to my room where I was informed of my perfectly clean pet scan. It was a great moment. My family was very excited. Everyone was relieved that this is over. However for me, it doesn’t feel “over”. Although I am VERY happy and grateful for my clean scan and to be cancer free. It is just very emotional and surreal and the same time, as well as scary. It’s the end of one thing. But the beginning of another. Life AFTER cancer. That’s all new territory for me. I finally got used to life WITH cancer. And I was used to life BEFORE cancer. Now this life AFTER cancer thing is totally new. I am extremely grateful to get to experience life after cancer. Not everyone gets to. It feels a little like there is more weight on my shoulders. I feel like I am going to expect more out of myself now. I think it’s a little bit similar to survivors guilt. Like I have to make this second chance worth it. Not everyone survives cancer and so I feel a little overwhelmed and very blessed at the same time. I’m not sure which emotion to feed. It’s confusing. Really, among the worst words a person could imagine hearing are “you have cancer”. I know what can kill me and this isn’t it. If I screw something up or it doesn’t go as planned. Life goes on. It really does. After getting the news of the clean scan my doctor came in. He was incredibly excited for me. My doctor is also a cancer survivor. He knows what I’m going through. He reminded me of the amazing new attitude towards life that we now both have, and to never forget it. He is such a positive person. He pulled up, on the computer, the picture of my scan which was a picture of my whole body in an xray form and NOTHING was lighting up that shouldn’t be! He then used the mouse to scroll the scan side to side so it looked like I was dancing and saying “look at me, no cancer!” I got the doctor who used to be a comedian in his earlier days. Other than that I don’t really remember anything else that happened in the room. Just a big blur really. But he did give me a great big hug and told me to come back in 6 months. I usually hear in other cases to come back in 3 months, but he said because things went so well it will be 6. So that’s great but now what? Just go back to normal life? Not that easy but I will do my best!!! I will continue to pray and try not to worry too much. I want to thank every single person who has been with me on this journey. All of my family and friends. Everyone who read my blog, everyone who commented, everyone who prayed for me, visited me, everyone who contributed to making my life easier during this difficult time, everyone who helped with my daughter.  It’s been a roller coaster but I’m so thankful to be alive!

Below is an article I found today about life after cancer. May be helpful to some other cancer survivors out there!



3 thoughts on “Re-Mission Accomplished!!

  1. Colleen

    Thanks Amy for continuing to keep all of us updated. I hope you continue with your blogs……I very much want to hear how you’re doing and I’m so happy for you! You’ve traveled on a journey that no one should have to, but it’s only made you stronger. I’m so amazed at your incredible courage and strength you’ve shown and continue to show. It’s so true that most of us take life for granted and your journey is a good reminder for all of us to live our lives to the fullest. May only the best of everything come your way!!


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