I just finished my last 24 hour chemo bag for my 4th cycle. Basically how it works is I get Rituxan on the the first day and that can take anywhere from a couple hours to 12 hours depending on the speed. Then I get three different 24 hour chemo bags for the next three days that include the drugs etoposide, doxorubicin and vincristine. Then 12 hours after the last of the three 24 hour chemo bags is finished, I get one last bag that contains cyclophosphamide. This is just a one hour bag (by bag I mean IV bag and the drugs flow directly into my port that was placed in my chest). So since I have finished the last 24 hour bag, I am currently just on fluids for 12 hours, then my very last one hour bag will start tomorrow morning and then I am out of here!!! I cannot wait! I want to go home and sleep in my own bed! Things went really well this time. I am so thankful that my body is handling the chemo so well! I have noticed that I have been a lot more emotional this time. I think since I am more than half way through this now the reality of all of this is starting to set in more. The adrenaline rush is gone. I am no longer in a state of shock. I am realizing that the next two years of my life (or more) I am going to be in complete fear of it coming back. As I just typed that sentence, a story came on on Fox 9 news of a teenager who had cancer as a child, and at 16 her cancer has come back. She is now at children’s hospital. She said with tears coming down her face that when people pray for her, even people that she doesn’t know, that means the world to her and makes her feel so good that people take the time to do that. I can relate to that. It is an amazing feeling. As much as I want to pretend I’m not worried, I would be lying to say that I’m not. But everything has been going so well and I will continue to be positive and fight! If it happens to come back, I will do the same thing! 💪💪🙏🙏
#prayer and positive attitude makes all the difference!