Before I began chemo, my doctor warned me about the intense fatigue I will experience. Up until this point I think I have been pretty lucky energy wise. But this time it really hit me hard. I am seriously exhausted. I just want to sleep. I always have to catch my breath. Just chewing my food too fast makes me short of breath. I got out of the hospital two days ago. My hemoglobin was low. About a 10.7. A normal person is 12 to 15. It is normal for my hemoglobin to be low after chemo, however if it gets below a 7 that is when I would need a blood transfusion. My doctor doesn’t expect that happening though. Yesterday I received my nuelasta shot which is given 12 hours after chemo ends to bring my blood counts slowly back up. The shot is worse than chemo itself. It stings going in and it causes bone pain that lasts about a week. It’s horrible. I would say the hardest day out of all of this is the day after I get that shot. My body hurts so bad all over. Everything feels like a bruise. It hurts to move and be touched. The worst is the day after the shot and then it gets better and better until I feel normal again in about a week. So I have been in bed all day. My daughter is with her friend for the weekend which really helps! She is keeping busy and having fun which is how it should be. I’m so thankful for that! I know it would be much harder for her if she had to watch me go through my tough days. She has a very special home away from home where she goes when I’m not feeling well (or when I’m feeling perfectly fine for that matter) and I am so thankful for that!
On another note, my eyebrows are almost MIA. I was really hoping to hold on to those babies. There is just something about the eyebrows going that makes this feel so much more real. Of course I can, and will, just draw them in with makeup but it makes me feel like I have to hide more. I have I hide my head. Now I have to make sure I have the eyebrows on. It’s just another annoying thing I can live with I guess. My best friend Jen Boggs (who does photography) has taken some photos of me without my hat on. I am going to post them eventually, I am just not quite ready yet. She did an amazing job though and I am happy I did it!
If everything continues going well I should half way through at this point!!
Staying positive 😄