Well my haircut did not last long at all. My hair began falling out in chunks just a few days ago so I had to shave it. So I officially now have no hair. I tried to keep it as long as I could but I wake up every morning with chunks on my pillow. This has certainly been the hardest part. I think people always wonder why woman shave their head and not just wait for it to fall out. It’s because when it starts to fall out, it’s falls out fast, you can’t even shower and wash your hair because it comes out in chunks, not single strands. Its all over the pillow when you wake up. It falls out everywhere. You can’t brush it. That’s why one day we have a whole head of hair and when it decides to fall out, it falls out so fast we have to shave it. I have just started going out in public with a scarf on my head. It will take some getting used to. At first I wanted nothing to do with wigs. But now that the time is here I do wish I was more comfortable wearing a wig. I don’t want to feel like I have to hide my head or what I am going through. I guess I want to try and prove to myself that I can be comfortable or confident enough not having to wear one. Not having to hide. But at the same time going out in public the last few days with my scarf has been tough. I am getting used to it and I know I will get to a point where I am totally comfortable with it but I won’t have hair for a long time and it would be nice to be able to see myself with hair again and normal. It’s going to many months before I will even have hair growth and then many many months to regrow my hair to the length I’m happy with. My aunt Mary Feidler who lives in Colorado found me a solution. Her and some family members and friends were kind and thoughtful enough to get me a wig with a hat attached, so it’s not actually a full wig. More like a hat with hair and the hair is real human hair. I have not yet come across anything like this. It’s either been a hat or wig. But I love the idea and happy that she took the time to find it online and made it all happen for me. Having a positive attitude towards all of this has allowed me to see all of the things God is doing for me and I appreciate them so much. I am not comfortable yet posting a pic of my head but maybe soon.